instant oatmeal falls free from the torn pouch to wait for boiling water where ceramic curves stuck in thick paste to fight with the spoon I want breakfast pie. I want to live on caffeine and mascara. I want to forget the balanced meal in the bottom of a wine bottle. or ice cream tub…

Broken frames tilt in staccato steps across the wall corners separated, paint chipped and fading Hanging by wire and finishing nails landscapes not been seen in decades I watch them leading across the room silent parade to the gold dipped window glass witness the end of another day. river stones on the window sill are…

I wanted silence after days of noise and tears heartbreak silence instead of music birdsong or conversation I wanted darkness to sit on my chest and suffocate me squash the light from the corners of my closed eyes instead of opening my heart to the sun I wanted nothing to fill the hole left by…

night rose faint hint of gold below gradient blue trees still bare snow melted still on the wire one last wintered gift and I I was lost in memories and wishes what might come and what will never candle light in mercury glass frames the wondering the hoping the doubting the wanting the fear the…

you died at the beginning of spring I felt your passing knowing without knowing my heart ripped away and thrown into darkness I knew felt your love around me like hummingbird kisses one day we will walk on the beach together hand in hand sweet girl I miss you like lungs miss air you were…

you are the smell of coffee in the faint morning light lavender violet clouds drifting past the window as I stir the cream with a spoon I forget to breathe when I see you the smile no longer rumoured on my lips my skin giggles from the pores and I blush in spite of myself…

  retreat move forward retreat a different way move again sliding across the board until one more piece is taken my head pounds thinking about you watching sitting far enough away to touch the glass I asked for nothing not the game or the turning the distance or ridicule and yet you gave it freely…

in the last light knots untie not by themselves of course but carefully with delicate fingers and patience I close my eyes to work on the worst parts the torn pages torn pieces forgotten and buried silk threads fall through my fingers undo the tapestry as it hangs on the wall across from me watching…

  pages turn blanket unused unspoiled no scratches or creases empty I cannot mirror my mind in the bleached fibers no colour or ink that blooms under my finger tips within the stretched skin covering my heart although I try I stare at the blank wall wondering why the words stop at the glass no…

  tell me to be strong as I close my eyes head down in a vice another blinding headache fill my chest with stones to balance the weight and lay me beneath the stars for one more night with the moon let your words float around my face to kiss my eyes to sleep one…

  I am you in your worry held breath waiting to be noticed acknowledged cared for loved understood I am you in the turning of a page learning connections storytelling in lines and wrinkles dug deep on your skin I am you in the last light of day sunset gold falling across your face with…

please you sat across from me after explaining all you can do have done wanted to do how you wanted to give back help others now that you were working and had a home of your own help those who are in the same place you were grateful after so many years for help for…