day 18: being bold or at least not letting the crit eek get the best of me

today I am grateful for..
1. putting aside my shy self and jumping into situations that if I listened to my ‘crit eek’ I would never have even dreamed of doing.
2. freaky dreams and having someone willing to listen to them
3. being inspired by a friend  to plan a date night for myself.
4. laughter

On a whim a few months ago, in November (I think) I signed up to compete in the NYC Midnight Short Story competition. I saw a post a friend of mine posted, followed the link and voila, suddenly found myself signed up. I got the email this morning and found out my assigned heat/ topic and I am off and writing now. Whatever happens, I am amazed that I even signed up in the first place. It goes hand in hand with me being asked last week to put some photos in an art show. Rather than think about it, make excuses not to do it, I just did it. It was the very first time that I had done anything like that… I am glad I did. I had nothing to lose in the end, just like with the writing competition. I really wanted to start this year of doing things that I have wanted to do but never had the courage to. So far, I am three for three. My unrulei making is helping.

I have been having some weird and intense dreams lately – and luckily a friend of mine has been willing to listen to me talk about them. I have mixed feelings about interpreting dreams, but regardless, it is nice to have someone to talk to about them.

I also am grateful for another friend (Gen you’re awesome) who has inspired me to plan an ongoing ‘date night’ for myself. I haven’t actually planned it yet but I am going to. 2 hours just for me.

Not sure how I can’t be grateful for laughter. I just am.


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